you have it worse.

amid the F1 flies and the ever thirsty but never get a chance to feast on people's blood without risking dying mosquitoes and the noisy cicadas singing their song and the cranky sun shining strongly down the ground and the welcomed rain pelting down the windscreen and the ever lovely and loved clouds,there she was.

it was most probably due to being delirious with boredom,of having nothing to do,of just lying there,waiting for time to pass,waiting for the thursday to arrive, listening to the inane chatter of an old timer, and an older timer, trying to keep cool,not shaving because there wasnt a need to,drinking water,peeing silver,holding faeces for 4 nights and 5 days,listening to music,reading a thousand splendid suns, lying on that dreaded but thanked for safari bed,checking the phone for any contacts,none,playing with the TRS set with other drivers who were equally bored, smoking the life away,eating,talking,thinking,cards,prata and.

or it was just the way she appears in my mind,not all the time,but always sometimes.

what you did was unforgivable,but at the instance i remember you,i'd always forgive you.

you were too young to decide,i was too young and had pride.

things could've been different,much different.much different.

perception point

its getting difficult
to breathe
to eat
to drink
to live
to see
to feel
to smell
to taste
to expect
to live up to expectations
to care
to share
to wonder
to amaze
to be amazed
to hold on
to hope on
to carry on

makan time,everything's okay already
or so it is

not having much left

i dont regret that she took my heart,almost all of it with her as she ended hers

i just regret that i didnt give all of it to her
however insignificant my heart was,and however held back with what would happen and the consequences were.

irresponsiblyuaib

thinking that i'd live through my life without regrets,i'm having one right now

and people with choices,choose when you still have it.
dont lament this and that.

its true about what someone told me,you'd never get over it.
so i'm pretty glad i won't get over it
cos i wont forget,and im a forgetful person

so dont let me forget.please.

just a hug before you go,come back to me,

chicky

going away

for the 2nd timers it shouldnt be special at all la

but alot of things happen just before going in
at least there's things to think about

and think thoroughly through

and come to the same conclusion
overandoverepeatedagain

im not

your words to describe me
im not that good y'know

so wake up and dont go that way
now

sudah tua

kite orang orange
minat graygreen
minat perempuan itu
tapi makan sudu
kita pergi mandi
pakai berus gigi
masuk dalam army
terus boleh mati
kita sedang mendak
perkataan hendak
ada maksud ke tidak
dah lama tak botak

hokay you i love you but lets fatality this

hug you tight so you wont fall off to the ground

my irritating little chinese lovable friend