your sun is brighter than mine, but its okay.

humid and heaty, rainy and breezy.
i have you. i have a job. i want a career.
i have a card. i am taking another component of that card.
you are imperfect. i am too. but i hope you will be perfect soon.
never seems to be enough. i have nothing to pay for but i have nothing i keep.
where does it all go?

its a good feeling to know that no one reads this blog anymore.
not trying to sound like im seeking self pity, but it really does feel good.
perhaps those blog skippers might see so, hello and goodbye to
you.

little girl.
i admit you havent been on my mind very often.
but when you do..
when you do...
your birthday is easy to remember because its the same date as white day, which is a month after valentines.
and your departure is on a public holiday.
wait for me to get a 2-wheel.
i'll ride to see you.
i couldnt..make you move on.
but you helped me.

i owe you.

sleep is good.

i had an afternoon nap today.



in the dream...



i was in the train,heading to a destination i didn't know how to get to.then,common as it is,trains tend to jerk suddenly,so i was bumped by a woman.this woman was sorry,so we just started to chat.and that led to me knowing where she was heading to.coincedences happen alot in dreams,so its obvious that i was heading there too. so we went together,and we chatted and joked and laughed and suddenly she sped up.i thought she got sick of me,so i walked at my own pace.then she turned around,gave that fake impatient look and gave a sweet smile and said "why are you so slowwwwwww.hurry up!" and that kinda just made me more interested in her.i chased her and we were almost reaching the destination when i realised that she seemed flustered.she took out her phone,and called her friends.i thought this would be bye,but then she said on the phone "i'll be late,i'll meet you guys later?" then i asked her what was she heading to the place for,and she pointed to a countdown timer on a screen and there was fireworks.i watched fireworks with a stranger who was holding my arm. and strangely enough,that person reminded me of someone who used to be close and spent the nights telling me things and asking me if i knew about this arts event or that play and how to come about with this design and such. just as things were about to get sweet in the dream,i got a message.i woke up thinking,this can't be from her,right? i mean,thats just too magick.

and the message was mcdelivery.fucker.

i tried to sleep but it just couldn't come.
but now im thinking whether i should go and try to contact her again.
if you ever read this and you know its you,let's meet for coffee.

jupiter.

rediscover radiohead.

Groggy.

misterforg.

moresleeplesseatnolovemoremoneymoretimemorelucknohugnokissnoseeingnosmellingnocontactnocontractnosnacksmoreexerciselesscirclelesspregnantmoretonermorepowermorestrongermorefastermoresmartermorescariermorefiercermoreangerlessguilt.

yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

really need more sleep to shake off the sands on my eyes.so irritating siol the feelink.

wrong.

plausible?

its so inbred.since young till now.and still is,so its most probably me.definitely me.









i still think about you. and i realise what people say when songs remind them of other people.

you were damien rice and john mayer and perhaps even more.

but for now,i'm content,well not really.

i want to see you,but would it make it easier when you have to go again?

it just dawns.

that some things just don't work out.
and thats the worst because its the finalised sort of thing.
and that we can't do anything about it.

the choices ended when it dawns.

wisdom.

its causing discomfort,but it wasn't before they started mentioning it.

much like how things are with people.
you're okay with them,then suddenly you hear something which totally gives you another perception of something negative.

now i have to go to the dentist to take it out.

and get to do scaling too <3
p.s:scaling is when they clean your teeth using air pressure or water or something.
basically just the most AWESOMEST thing in dental care.